Today my daughter returns from being away for a whole month to write a novel. While she was away, I’m sure she found out a lot of new things about herself and the world. The novel is really a sidebar. The trip was actually more about finding out what she could achieve all on her own. It was about doing something hard and scary – taking a risk.
If we are lucky, we continue a journey of self-discovery our whole life. If we want, we can continue to learn about the world until our last breathe. That is how I want to live my life. Always learning and discovering.
While Tessa was away, I learned about who I am without her. I was faced with the realization that I won’t always have my children near me or be so intimately involved in their lives. I was forced to focus on myself. It was unsettling at first but soon evolved into a sense of freedom and excitement. It became clear that I will always feel passion for issues involving education and children. I learned that I have a lot more energy for my own projects than I thought I did. I’ve just been using a lot of it to be a Mom. This last month has left me feeling smarter, more capable and curious about new things I want to try.
It turns out that the trip I invested in for my daughter was just as much a learning journey for me.